Damn

john | June 29, 2026, 7:39 a.m. Uncategorized

It's exhausting trying to patch everything all at once.  I'm not sure its even possible.  Over extend and suddenly your at wits end.  It's not the worse of places to be.  The chair is comfortable, the clothes is new, and it fits.  Also you're forced to view it, the end, with the help of your mental faculties depleted, which in irony is necessary to see it in new light, that pesky Darwinism theory.

There is only so much patching everything does anyways, although this is not a rant against patching.  In fact it's almost an argument for.  You see, patching everything all at once, if possible, would be ideal, but it wouldn't actually fix it instantly.  

Sure some things might in fact be repaired, but others take time.  There is nothing that can be done but double check the patches and hope time does its thing.

Time is a fickle bastard, but we all know that already.  In fact the best that can be done is use what was gained to go back and re check every patch again obsessively, just on the off chance the second time you checked you missed something.

It's also another way to burn time in hopes it passes and the patches do their work.  It's like putting a bandied and hoping the nuke that went off is some how cured.  It's not.  Gonna take a long time to grow back despite the rebuild, and it's going to be nothing of its former self.  For better or worse I suppose.

Just a shattering of reality.  Necessary for no known reasons.  The grin comes out though, in the end the outcome wasn't so bad, just a nuclear trauma.  I suppose that's why its called wits end, you finally see the end of understand, and all you can do in that moment is smile. 

But that doesn't mean you can miss anything. You really do have to patch everything. It's the only way it heals fully. Even if it's nothing like what it used to be, at least the one thing it will be is healed, no matter how long it takes. And the healing and patching are never all at once. They're usually long, drawn out, painfully torturous, manically funny, and maniacally calming, flavored only with the soothing taste of satisfaction upon completion.

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