john | Oct. 16, 2024, 6:37 p.m. The Run
It's an odd feeling. The run started fine, felt the energy around my body. But my thoughts still weighing me down, wallowing while running in self pity. About six minutes in I needed a slight break due to either me not being able to not power through what ever, or because my body still wasn't there. Started feeling worse around minute ten, so dropped the speed to five instead of six.
As a bit more time, I had to take random breaks here and there. Was just the fact that this is going to be constant and steady, for ever probably not, but for a while sure. Like the run I guess, but the run does cause me benefits. This causes me discomfort, pain, depression, who knows what the feeling is but it feels dark and heavy. Who cares, never mattered, at least got to thirty minutes. Didn't do the extra few.
It will keep evolving, till one day maybe it will be gone, or like some sort of eternal wound it will sit there for the rest of time. At least I can wallow in my run with satisfaction knowing it sucks.
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