Don't feel defeated anymore. On the contrary, feel relieved. The beauty of logical words.
They are unreactionary, but they cause ease. It's actually rather beautiful. I don't feel victorious. It's like back to neutral. That's a feeling I can live with.
I'm going to take the dogs out for a walk here in a bit. Now, the schedule, seems a bit irrelevant. I feel I can focus a bit more on the world now.
It's amusing to say the least.